Testimonies - Testimony

He has changed my life radically.

After a life of isolation full of fear and phobias, I was set free and received a new life. Step by step, I learned how the world looks like what there is for sale, and the greatest gift: a new bible. Not literally, but it became unveiled to me. I constantly read new things. This week was a continuation of that start of my new life. For somebody with my past this was a major step. Driving myself (Yes! I got my drivers license). Being among people I did not know (I was afraid of people). Be up from early in the morning until late at night (normally I would go to bed at 10, and often times needed to take naps). Unbelievable!

Monday I went home feeling sick. I had a tough night, lots of attacks and nightmares, and I did not want to go back on Tuesday. If that is what happens if the Holy Spirit comes over you, I don't want Him. On Tuesday I did go, I dragged myself there. I was desperate and thought, only God can help me out of this so I have to go to Drachten. And God helped me. There was deliverance needed. It was heavy and I went home feeling even worse than on Monday. Everything reminded me of the time I spent in psychiatry care. And that I don't want ever again!! Neither does my husband. He told I'd better not go anymore.

But God is a God of surprises as Kamran said earlier this week.

My surprise was that I woke up on Wednesday really feeling like keep going. Drachten was pulling me and God was pulling me.

Since that day, I am enjoying. I am enjoying like never before. Every day a bit more freedom, and growing closer to the Lord. Coincidental conversations that help me in the right direction, the unity, the exploring of my love for painting

LOVE-ly!

And the surprise that I can play the cello again

I am our God forever thankful for His love. For us, for me, Jeanine! I am somebody! Just the way I am! A bit crazy, maybe (but by far not as much as Suzy, yet ?)

But I am a child of God, daughter of the King!

Amen!

       - Jeanine, Holland